"I keep my scars from prying eyes incapable of ever knowing why" (Slipknot)
My shield protects me from the outside world
It hides my shattered and vulnerable soul
No one has ever breached through it
Until I met you
Immediately you saw through my defenses
Called me out on it and reassured me I could get rid of them
Slowly I let them down when talking to you
Now I trust you completely and keep them down all the time
The few times they go back up are when I feel insecure about myself
You are my other half, best friend, and confidante
I am honored to have such a remarkable man as a friend
For four years I was living in hell
Numb on
There is no answer at the bottom of the bottle
It never stopped me from draining it dry
The pain never goes away no matter how many times i tried to dig it out with a blade
It never stopped me from staining the razor with my blood
There is no comfort to be found in the arms of strangers
It never stopped me from losing myself in their bodies
There is no prince charming coming to save me
It never stopped me from searching for a prince on a white horse
There is no such thing as true love in this world
It never stopped me from loving those around with all my heart
There is no salvation to be found in the religious icons that surround m
If i had only one wish it would be to save you
I would ask that all your old wounds be healed
All the darkness that surrounds you to be banished
All the stress and bullshit to be taken away
I would want for you to be in peace
I would want you to be with the ones you loved
Fuck, i would give anything and everything to take away your suffering
Never before have i met a man as strong as you
You have an iron will and the ability to keep going no matter the odds
It is an honor getting to know you
You saved me from my own darkness
Gave me strength not to give up when i all i wanted to was throw in the towel
I wish that I could do the sa
Love is a tender and malicious companion
It grows into a perfect rose only to be choked in its own thorny vines
For only a brief instant does it bring light into one's own personal hell
then it is extinguished like a small flame caught in the wind
Is there a point to nurturing and yearning for it?
It would be safer to hide in the shadows shielded from the light
If one has never loved, one never has to mend a shattered and bloodied body
The pieces never fit back into place and the scars cause eternal anguish
I hide my true self from the world
Wear a thousand masks to suit everyone
There are only a few that see the real me behind all the deceit
I hide behind my tough exterior and try to destroy any softness in my heart
Emotion and love are nothing more weaknesses that tear people down
I walk through life a ghost of my former self
Some how I have lost myself along the way
I am tired of all the games and the rules
I wish only for a moment of peace where I don't have to worry
Everyday I wake up to more problems
I lack the strength sometimes to accomplish what I need
I struggle through life and try to make it a better place
For isn't that
Blood Lust: Chapter 1-Prey by FallenMaeve, literature
Literature
Blood Lust: Chapter 1-Prey
In my 1,000 years of existence, I had never come across a more perfect male. I had lain with the so called "gods" of the ages and all had lost my interest within a fortnight. No matter their blood had warmed my body and aroused me far more than they had ever managed to; a fair trade in my mind. I no longer needed the blood but the craving was always there. It was the need to sink my fangs into the buttery soft flesh and feel the warm red liquid bathe my palette. A perfect moment of intimacy and the taste always sent my senses reeling. Pulling out my pack of Marlboro's I light one up and inhaled the rich taste savoring the rush. Usually I avoi
Disillusioned by all around me
Jaded from all the challenges life has given me
Always knew I would lose my innocence
Never expected to lose my faith in men as well
Nothing in life holds anymore pleasure
The razor no longer cuts out the pain
Alcohol no longer numbs my senses
Sex with faceless strangers still leaves my body cold
Always shrouded in the darkness
A spectator of my own life
Not expecting to be saved by anyone
Don't want pity or weak words of comfort
Just want to be set free from all of it
For really what the fuck am I even here for?