FallenMaeve

"I keep my scars from prying eyes incapable of ever knowing why" (Slipknot) My shield protects me from the outside world It hides my shattered and vulnerable soul No one has ever breached through it Until I met you Immediately you saw through my defenses Called me out on it and reassured me I could get rid of them Slowly I let them down when talking to you Now I trust you completely and keep them down all the time The few times they go back up are when I feel insecure about myself You are my other half, best friend, and confidante I am honored to have such a remarkable man as a friend For four years I was living in hell Numb on

There is no answer at the bottom of the bottle It never stopped me from draining it dry The pain never goes away no matter how many times i tried to dig it out with a blade It never stopped me from staining the razor with my blood There is no comfort to be found in the arms of strangers It never stopped me from losing myself in their bodies There is no prince charming coming to save me It never stopped me from searching for a prince on a white horse There is no such thing as true love in this world It never stopped me from loving those around with all my heart There is no salvation to be found in the religious icons that surround m

If i had only one wish it would be to save you I would ask that all your old wounds be healed All the darkness that surrounds you to be banished All the stress and bullshit to be taken away I would want for you to be in peace I would want you to be with the ones you loved Fuck, i would give anything and everything to take away your suffering Never before have i met a man as strong as you You have an iron will and the ability to keep going no matter the odds It is an honor getting to know you You saved me from my own darkness Gave me strength not to give up when i all i wanted to was throw in the towel I wish that I could do the sa

Love is a tender and malicious companion It grows into a perfect rose only to be choked in its own thorny vines For only a brief instant does it bring light into one's own personal hell then it is extinguished like a small flame caught in the wind Is there a point to nurturing and yearning for it? It would be safer to hide in the shadows shielded from the light If one has never loved, one never has to mend a shattered and bloodied body The pieces never fit back into place and the scars cause eternal anguish

I hide my true self from the world Wear a thousand masks to suit everyone There are only a few that see the real me behind all the deceit I hide behind my tough exterior and try to destroy any softness in my heart Emotion and love are nothing more weaknesses that tear people down I walk through life a ghost of my former self Some how I have lost myself along the way I am tired of all the games and the rules I wish only for a moment of peace where I don't have to worry Everyday I wake up to more problems I lack the strength sometimes to accomplish what I need I struggle through life and try to make it a better place For isn't that

In my 1,000 years of existence, I had never come across a more perfect male. I had lain with the so called "gods" of the ages and all had lost my interest within a fortnight. No matter their blood had warmed my body and aroused me far more than they had ever managed to; a fair trade in my mind. I no longer needed the blood but the craving was always there. It was the need to sink my fangs into the buttery soft flesh and feel the warm red liquid bathe my palette. A perfect moment of intimacy and the taste always sent my senses reeling. Pulling out my pack of Marlboro's I light one up and inhaled the rich taste savoring the rush. Usually I avoi

Disillusioned by all around me Jaded from all the challenges life has given me Always knew I would lose my innocence Never expected to lose my faith in men as well Nothing in life holds anymore pleasure The razor no longer cuts out the pain Alcohol no longer numbs my senses Sex with faceless strangers still leaves my body cold Always shrouded in the darkness A spectator of my own life Not expecting to be saved by anyone Don't want pity or weak words of comfort Just want to be set free from all of it For really what the fuck am I even here for?

Love me Hate me Fuck me Protect me Leave me Understand me Cherish me Use you Fuck you Crave you Love you Protect you